Choosing Recovery is Worth it
Becca, from Birmingham, is 27 and a Midwife.
I’ve struggled with an eating disorder since my early teens and during this time there have been many ups and downs. The eating disorder gave me a sense of control and achievement that I felt I was lacking in my life and I clung to it like a safety blanket. It took over my thoughts, my body and eventually began to affect every aspect of my life.
I sought help after a very long time of fighting alone and was lucky enough to have a local eating disorder service. After a long admission to day treatment I had made progress but was still attached to the eating disorder, even though it had taken so much from me. Work had to be put on hold as well as many other aspects of life.
I am now an outpatient and still receiving treatment to help me with recovery. I have the best support network I could wish for and this makes me hopeful for the future.
Choosing recovery is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done and it’s a constant battle, but I believe it’s worth it. It’s completely normal to have relapses but you are so much more than an eating disorder. My hope is that I can continue on my recovery journey and get to a place where the eating disorder is no longer a part of my life.
I’ve always felt alone in my eating disorder but you are never the only one feeling this way. Remember you are never alone and things can get better.
- Jul 2019