Reflections of 2022 and a Baby Show Recovery Win
Here's a little personal story, from one of our befriendees, Gillian:
Looking back 2022 was a significant year in recovery from my eating disorder. I can now begin to acknowledge how far I’ve come.
NHS counselling in March enabled me to really challenge myself. Working with my befriender had put me in a good place to continue. My weight increased and I was able to let go of certain behaviours. I faced an anxious time in the autumn - the dilemma of shopping for ‘bigger’ clothes and getting rid of tiny ones. I eventually did it with help!
I have noticed myself actually looking forward to coffee with friends, being able to choose a scone and put butter on it without fear! Overall my voice is getting stronger and I believe finally speaking about my eating disorder has helped to reduce the shame.
Last week my daughter had a baby shower and it was a real highlight for me. I baked a cake, following the recipe exactly. No cutting back on fat and sugar or using alternatives. It was a wonderful party. I felt truly present and ate a slice of my cake!
This year I shall work on my stubborn behaviours and try to relax remaining rules. Also I’m going on holiday this summer to a hotel I stayed at in 2021 - the start of my recovery. I think it’s going to be quite different.
In my mind as I write this , is the thought that the significant person in my recovery journey, apart from my husband, is my befriender. Along with Wednesday’s Child podcasts - people with lived experience of an eating disorder.
- Jan 2023