The Sun Will Rise And We Will Try Again
Millie, from Doncaster, is 17 and a college student.
I began struggling at the age of fifteen. My eating disorder arose from control- I began to restrict my food and exercise excessively to distract myself from the sporadic and disorganised nature of exam season and educational pressures. I also had very low self-esteem, so turned to weight loss as a saviour for this.
I was admitted to an inpatient unit after an emergency hospital stay a couple of months after (April 2017) and was discharged at a healthy weight by June 2017. I’m not afraid to say that I tricked my way out. My ED was still so strong- I let the weight go on so it could come back off once I left the hospital.
I relapsed fully in November and was admitted to hospital again. I was in quasi-recovery for a long time after that, until early 2018, when I realised that my life was worth so much more than the disorder. I finished my exams, went to prom, started college and I now have an amazingly supportive boyfriend; yes, there have been blips, but I haven’t given up.
I’m now discharged from ED Services.
Life is now adventurous, free and loving - my boyfriend has been incredibly supportive and helped me so much to accept my body and pushed me to challenge my fears, whilst still acknowledging my thoughts attached to those.
I have my Instagram account - @cinnamillie_ - where I profile my recovery as well as my own small business!
Remember “The Sun Will Rise And We Will Try Again”: One minor blip doesn’t mean that your journey has ended, it only opens up opportunities to better yourself in the future.
- Jun 2019